Three Years Later

Moving Out  On

Three years. 

Three years ago I did one of the hardest things I have ever done. I said I'm DONE. 

I had no idea what was going to happen next but I knew I had to do it. 

Saying NO and I'M DONE and walking away from something that was supposed to be forever, was hard but I knew I had to put myself first and I do what was right for me. 

Looking back, I am so SO proud of myself. I remember I was scared, but I knew it was the best choice I could make. 

I am still learning and growing and realizing life is different for every single person. 

I am the person who I am today because the girl 3 years ago was brave and spoke her truth, even when her voice was shaky. 

Looking back, I couldn't be happier that I knew the weight that I felt after I said NO was lifted off my shoulders, I knew immediately I made the right decision. It became even more evident when I was moving out and I felt calm and I just wanted to get away as quickly as I could. 

One year later, on August 1, 2020, I found a Flamingo statute placed by my car without any note or card. 

One year later, on August 3, 2021, I wrote this post about how so much has changed and how much I've grown. 

Three years later, the week of July 24, 2022, I got my redemption  and I went to Holterman's Bakery in Staten Island. Why do you ask that I went all the way to Staten Island for baked goods? Good question, I will tell you.... My ex used to get me these cupcakes all the time and I always felt like it was his thing. I happened to be in the area of Staten Island and it just felt right that I went and bought my OWN cupcakes with my OWN money. It was empowering and they were still so yummy. 

The emotions are still there- not because I want to go back but because it was a really hard thing to go through and at the time, no one knew what was really happening. Shame on me for not being more forthcoming but I learned to let others in and not to be afraid to speak about hard things. 

So here I am, three years later, still growing, still learning and still making her own path. 

[[ Not all storms come to disrupt your life, some come to clear your path]]