It is so hard for me to deal with everything right now. I am overwhelmed with emotions, and they tend to come out in weird ways- yelling, screaming, getting mad about little things, crying. I have not moved from my bed all day (Thursday) and I have dealt with a lot of stuffthrough out my life yet this , this is probably the hardest because since I have nothing else to do I am thinking of other past traumas and its all coming to head since I didn't process it properly when it happened. Its not about the little thing that I am frustratd but its the bigger underlying thing that is bothering me.
It's Friday.
This week marks fourish weeks of alternate schedule due to COVID-19 for me. We have extended the alternate day schedule into May but I have a feeling that it will go into the summer. It's been another weird week filled of uncertainty, wonder and sadness. I have been trying to keep myself on somewhat of a schedule when I'm not working and it's hard to keep myself on task. My mind is always wandering, I am so distracted and just a feeling of true unrest. This week my thing was watching movies. It might take me a few times of pausing the movie to watch it fully but I have finished 3 movies this week. I am reviewing all the movies I see this month in my April Reads posts which has been aptly changed to April Flix.
Is anyone else struggling like I am? I know we are all in this together but that makes me feel even more alone to be honest. I lost my umph to work out and to do things I normally do. I want to shut my brain off to be honest.
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