a well timed break

Happy Friday!

This week has been a pretty good week. I have been feeling good and been pretty busy at work but something I feel is wrong...not really wrong but something was odd. I had this nagging feeling all week and I couldn't put my finger on it. 

I felt all week, my urge to write wasn't there. I wanted to write about my thoughts and feelings coming up on one year in quarantine and I couldn't get the words out of my head. I tried for days and I continued to try all this week. Writing the post about my car's birthday was supposed to be funny and in the end I don't think it ended up being funny. Something was wrong. 

Was I putting too much pressure on myself to write and to be a blogger  when in reality I just like to write? I get caught up with the perfection game and I don't want to disappoint myself. Seeing how others are able to write these long and really engaging posts makes me jealous in a sense. I want to be able to do that too. I love writing so much but putting out content this month has been a struggle. 

I am taking this as a sign to refocus and take a break. My word of the year- focus- I had truly no idea how this was going to come into play but I think I am starting to see. Maybe I need to take a step back and think about what is important and what I want to spend my time doing. 

My mom has always told me that God will throw you small pebbles to direct your attention to what is wrong. If you ignore the small pebbles, he will start to throw bigger and bigger pebbles to see if you will pay attention to those. If you ignore the bigger pebbles, he will eventually start to throw boulders to get your attention. Now, I think I am still in the small pebbles stage and I feel like a break might be good for myself. 

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SO  the point of my rambles is to let you know that, I am taking a break to refocus and to see what happens. This past year has taught me so much and taking breaks when you need to, is so important. 

This is just a see you later, not a goodbye. 

[[the world has slowed so you can rediscover yourself]]