Slow Down Sunday

Hi! This weekend was a weekend. In the best possible way. Was it slow? nope. Was it a little hectic? yes. Did the universe kinda mess with my head? why yes it did. Did I drink all the rose' and sangrias? why yes of course, they were delicious (and probably my kryptonite).

Its Sunday night and I have been in bed for about 2 hours already. Do I care? Not really because for me this is self care- crawling into bed, watching the last few episodes of The Good Place and just breathing.

As I reflect on my weekend, I am happy how it went but my little head hurts. I have so many questions/situations/memories swirling around in my head, I feel like Chidi on the Good Place trying to make a decision.

None the less, I enjoyed the beautiful weather, had a lot of laughs, ate all the food and got to have some really great conversations. I was present, I felt for most of the weekend and enjoyed it. That is something, I feel that most people do not do- be present. We are all so connected via our smartphones and yet we are so far away from people. We live through our phone screens and its sad. I hope I can improve on being more present in life and actually showing up for it not just watching it through my phone's camera.

Have a wondeful night, do some self-care, get ready for this week and always remember to smile.

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That is how I feel. I had a great weekend. I went to lunch and to TJ Maxx on Saturday and then today I went to the movies and lunch by myself. The Minions movie was adorable. What a great idea to tell the story before Gru. 

I am feeling like above due to my diagonsis from last week. Most days I am under control with my emotions and then I start researching something that pops into my head and I'm done. I have this team of doctors and support and its overwhelming. Everything I have read, this is totally normal, I understand that but I have no one to talk to or even explain what is going on. My work friends know a little but not everything. I have maybe three friends outside of work and the one was less than supportive of this. I don't want to post what is happening all over social media- its not my style. I need someone to confide in. I am really considering an ex boyfriend who wanted to be my friend, my confident. I am that desperate to get this off my chest and let someone else on the inside. I want to see a psychologist to talk about all of this but I am worried that I have no time off,  and they will have crazy hours and it just gives me more to worry about. Merp.

To end this on a happier note.  These three articles had me in stitches, I was laughing so hard.

24 Parks and Rec Quotes to Make You Laugh

Anna Kendrick for the Win

15 Times Gordon Rasmey Got Sassy 

Also this seems appropriate:

Sunday nights can be pretty rough. Try not to let yourself get too sad or anxious about the week ahead. You can get through anything that’s going to happen this week. You will do marvelous things and it’ll be WONDERFUL.

Here is your Sunday evening reminder that you can handle and make it through whatever this week throws at you.

xx Gabrielle