Monday, November 29, 2021

Dear November

Hey November!

You were pretty packed and pretty amazing! Lets jump into the highlights shall we?

  • Adoption Day
  • Crohn's Flare
  • Adventures
  • Beautiful Sunsets
OKAY! The month started out with a trip to a really yummy restaurant in Red Bank, Gabriella's. It was a great experience - The food, cocktails and service were next level. I wanted to try everything off the menu. We started with cocktails and appetizers then the main course with sides. EVERYTHING was better than the next. On the way to the bathroom, there was a huge mural, it was a large heart made out of fake flowers. I was in awe of it. After eating until we were completely stuffed, we took out leftovers and headed out. As I passed the hostess stand, I spotted something that made me stop and grab it. In a giant fishbowl, there were small boxes that I knew exactly what they were- matches. My parents used to collect matches when they would go out to eat in the '80s. I haven't seen a restaurant do this in a long time and it made me smile. 

Early on in the month, I started not feeling great. There was definitely something wrong due to the consistent stomach pains I was experiencing. They started back in October but I didn't think too much of them.  I was eating out a lot and I thought my stomach wasn't used to the food. Boy, was I wrong! It got to a point early-ish in November where I was doubled over in pain. I've never had such intense pains before. I've had stomach pains before (hello summer 2018) but this was BAD. I made a doctors appointment and I swore I was going to be admitted to the hospital. I thought something was broken in me. WELL, after the doctors appointment, I realized, this was actually a bad flare and this for a Crohn's patient was normal. Colored me shocked. After some antibiotics and some rest, I was good as new. My doctor and I also agreed that my dosing schedule for Humira should remain at 10 days and not 14 days. 
By the end of the month,  I was feeling more like my old self. 

Adoption day is one of my favorite parts of my job and this year because of the ongoing pandemic, we held it virtually again. I made sure the background behind me was colorful and joyful and we hosted 20 something adoptions in one day. What a special memory for the families right before the holidays. 

The day after adoption day, Kyle and I went on an adventure to Sandy Hook. Now, living in New Jersey my whole life, I had never gotten to experience Sandy Hook before. I was pretty excited to see what Sandy Hook had to show me and let me tell you, it did not disappoint. Sandy Hook in November is beautiful; let's be honest, going to the beach in the off season, especially in the colder months, is my favorite thing. As we drove through Sandy Hook, we were able to see the old buildings and lots of dunes. We parked and walked to the beach to see the water. What I wasn't expecting was to see the NYC skyline so clearly and it looked SO close. Kyle even commented that its rare to get a clear day.I felt so lucky to be able to see it. Kyle found a shell that had many shells on it.(confusing i know) but think of a science experiment gone wrong. 

After we explored more of Sandy Hook, we went to the Chubby Pickle for lunch in the Highlands. When Kyle initially asked me if I wanted to go to the Chubby Pickle, I giggled. It sounded so silly!  When we arrived a few minutes later, I realized the Chubby Pickle was a building that was painted green- like a pickle. I couldn't stop giggling. A total locals only type place that served us a great lunch.  BONUS: It was featured on Guy Fieri's Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives.

One morning as I was driving to work, I passed by this waterfront park and the way the sun was rising from behind the trees and it just looked so beautiful, I had to pull over and take a photo of it. As I was taking the photo, a bird flew into the frame to complete such a pretty photo. I can't wait to print it out and frame it. I love those unexpected moments. 

After a month, I am happy to say that I am still really enjoying rock climbing. Am I still falling? YES. Do I still have bruises all over my legs? YES! Do I leave the gym each time with a huge smile on my face? HECK YES! This has been such a fun way to workout and share it with Kyle. I cannot wait to see how I progress with this!  

Thanksgiving was nice and quiet with my parents. I love our holiday traditions and spending time with my parents. The day after Thanksgiving, we were supposed to take our Christmas Card photo but mother nature had other plans that day. The day was beautiful, and our photo was slated to start an hour before sunset. Just as we were getting ready, the wind picked up. My mom and I looked at each other and started to worry; our photos were outside at the lake. About 10 minutes later, we get a phone call from the photographer, suggesting that we postpone the photos because with the wind, the photos would not turn out well. We agreed and rescheduled the photos for the Tuesday. 

We were kind of happy that it got postponed because we realized that we didn't like our outfits. It was definitely a blessing in disguise.  Tuesday photo went perfect and we are so excited to see how they turned out. The sunset was moody and the weather was much better. Mom and I are busy scouring Snapfish to pre-pick out the Christmas cards; so when we receive the photos and pick our favorite and then order them ASAP. Christmas is coming quick. 

I had the opportunity to catch up with a dear friend during a walk at Double Trouble Park. It was a beautiful crisp day and it was lovely being outside and catching up with her. I love that my area has so many parks and walking trails. 

By the end of the month,  I was finally feeling better. I was relieved that it was just a flare but in the back of my mind, I wondered why this happened. I hope and pray that this was just a one off event and it doesn't become a thing. 

November you were pretty awesome overall. I can't wait to see what December holds for me. 

[[Being thankful is a state of mind]]



Thursday, November 25, 2021

Happy Thanksgiving


There is so much to be thankful for this year, even more so than past years. 

Wishing you all a day filled with family, food and gratitude. 



Wednesday, November 24, 2021

WGJ vol. 23

These song have been stuck in my head ALL month and I personally feel like this is one of the most eclectic playlists I've put together. Most of the times my playlists are very heavy with country but this month I have added some other genres too. New meets old. Enjoy!

WGJ vol. 23
Burnin' up a Bench Seat- Hunter Jordan
Country'd Look Good On You- Frank Ray
Me Being Me- Mitch Rossell
Wildfire- Nate Smith
Voices- Jana Kramer
Something About Her Blue Eyes- Granger Smith
Slow Down Summer- Thomas Rhett
Shivers- Ed Sheeran
U-Turn- Seth Ennis
Beer With My Buddies- HIXTAPE, HARDY, Travis Denning, Josh Thompson
Minus You- Brandon Davis
Small Town Small- Jason Aldean
Whatever It Takes- High Valley
Wontcha Come Back Home- Drew Baldridge
Here's To Moving On- Dashboard Confessional
You Deserve It All- John Legend
Wannabes- Brett Kissell
A Little Bit Of You- Tyler Rich

Listen Here.



Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Hi again

 Hi!

Well its been a long 8 month stretch without writing. I thought about writing often during that time yet I did not have the oomph to do anything about it. One of the main reasons why I stepped back was because it got to be TOO MUCH. I felt anxious and not good enough and overwhelmed and really down in the dumps about myself every single time I logged on to Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat. I knew that was not a good feeling and it definitely was not good for my mental health. The comparisons, the feeling of not doing enough was overwhelming and I decided for my own sanity and mental health that I needed a change. 

Stepping back from Social Media was a breath of fresh air, literally. I felt like I was no longer tied to a screen and I wasn't mindlessly scrolling. It was a change and I knew I needed something else to fill up my time; I knew I would find something else but I was enjoying the stillness of not doing anything. I made a conscious effort to re-evaluate what apps I was clicking on and viewing each day. My screen time dramatically went down. I re-found my love of reading (thanks to Libby) and in the warmer months, I tired to be outside as much as I can. 

Life was still stressful and overwhelming though. I couldn't seem to shake this weird unknown feeling I was living with each day. The Pandemic was still happening and there seemed to be no end in sight. I felt like this past summer was harder than the Summer 2020. Maybe in the Summer of 2020, we (me) were all blissfully unaware what was going to be happening and now Summer 2021, we knew what was happening but didn't know what to do with it? I am not sure how to eloquently put that into words but I think you get the jist of it. I was trying my best to live my life as safely as I can. I slowly started to reemerge into the world and doing things I used to love. It was weird and sometimes scary but as I took baby steps, I felt like this is good. I felt like something was still missing but couldn't put my finger on it and I still didn't have any oomph to do anything about it.

Now eight months later....

I am here... again, with a clearer mind and a new way of thinking about things.

I have started to backpost (post date?) blog posts that were specific to the prior eight months. My Photo Diaries and WGJ Playlists were all being kept up during my blogging absence. I truly enjoy taking photos and making playlists of my favorite songs so that was a no brainer to continue to do. I am currently working on my Dear... series; this one is harder because it encapsulates so many things through out the month. Luckily, I have my phone and planners to help me through. Slowly but surely, I will complete the Dear.. series and continue on with it. 

Going forward, I want this to feel more organic and not so structured. That was one of my downfalls, I would be stressed writing a post because it was on my schedule. (No one cared about this silly schedule except me but I thought I would let myself down if I didn't write it). I want this to be a creative outlet and to be something I can really enjoy doing. I have so many creative interest and for a long time I felt like I should only focus on one; in reality, who is limiting you to only one, yourself? Why not try all the things and enjoy all the things? Maybe you will find even newer things to like too.

In my break, I have truly re-evaluated things in my life and what I am doing. Has it been easy, no but I have been very happy with the progress I have made so far. There is still a lot to work on but I think that is the fun part of it all. 

I hope you all stay on this journey with me and see where life takes me. 

[[Sometimes all that matters is that you are still trying]]



Wednesday, November 17, 2021

Diary #23

 I spy...





























What did you see this month?