Saying yes..... To myself

http://www.buzzfeed.com/sjlewinter/21-phases-of-a-first-date-fail-emh7

I am the lucky girl who the Maid of Honor for my best friends wedding. I am so happy she is getting married but I have to admit, being a single girl planning her best friends wedding, feels almost like I'm trapped in a romantic comedy. I should be falling for the best man the moment I see him right? (Spoiler alert: he's already married ) I love my best friend and her fiancée so much but I feel like I'm the third wheel permanently. You know, always the maid of honor never the bride. Now I'm not complaining, what so ever but it's awkward. 

I have had boyfriends in the past- though they have only lasted   Maybe 3 months maximum ( I am still trying to figure out why...) and I have tried online dating (on multiple occasions), dating co-workers(not advisable especially if he is the IT guy :/), meeting through friends (rarely works) and yet I haven't found any man to stick around long enough. I am starting to think there is something wrong with me. I know! I actually have my shit together and apparently that scares the crap outta men. Why do the girls always have to be the damsel in distress- we can take care of ourselves (sometimes)! We like the idea of the Prince coming to rescue the girl and they live happily ever after- when does that ever really happen besides with Prince William and Kate Middleton?? ( So jealous of these two and so envious of Kate Middleton's closet and life!!!!) (who doesn't right?) 

After this last breakup, I swore I wasn't going to go back on the dating websites because 1. It's god awful; 2. I constantly find boys I have already met in real life and 3. It's getting really REALLY old. But atlas, I did go back and yes, the pickings are slim. I am not even entertaining the idea of actually going out with any of these eligibable batcholers. Its that bad.

My whole point is normally when a boyfriend break up with me, I usually end up taking up a new hobby or refinding a lost one. When the IT guy broke up with me in February, I signed up for golf lessons. When the body builder broke up with me in May, I found the teacher quickly and started dating him (I guess you can call a hobby of mine, dating) and When  the teacher broke up with me in September, I started painting and crafting again (hard core). I guess I like these distractions to keep me from dwelling on my current heartbreak.

For the first time in almost 20 months, I have real no desire to date anyone, to go out on dates and talk about the same thing with 20 guys and pretend I am interested.I have been on this 'dating spree' for the last 2 years and I am EXHAUSTED. Dating is quite exhuasting and it doesn't help that a crapload of my friends are getting engaged and I'm still the single girl-that title is a love/hate relationship with me. I am excited to work on me and see where my hobbies and interests take me.

So I am finally saying YES to myself and to take time and do things I want to do and not pretend to like anything I don't want to do.

XX, the everyday jersey girl

I try so darn hard.......

I try so hard, each and every day to write a blog post, because I know even though, I dont have a lot of traffic on my blog, there might just be that ONE person interested right now on whats going on in my life. But alas, something prevents me from sitting down and writing my day to day antics out. I am partially upset with myself and partially upset with the fact, I have been so darn tired every day after work. '

I started the blog, originally because I read/skim through a bunch of blogs daily, and I admire what they are doing. They make everything look so effortless and easy. I want to imitate what they are doing (everyone knows that imitation is the most sincere form of flattery) but I want to put my own twists and spins on things. I want to show off my cute outfits to more people other than my Instagram followers and my co-workers (which I really don't think they enjoy that much!) and I always felt that a blogging community would be the best place but at the end of day, I'm tired and cranky (somedays) and blogging is the last thing on my mind.

Its a new month, October, and I will try my hardest, to blog more and not be so worried about who and if anyone is actually reading this.

Off to find a quote to be describe the bride aka my biff aka my best friend. EEK!

XX, the everyday jersey girl.

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Oh Monday......This is my first full week (aka working 5 days in a row) since the end of JUNE!! This might be a little tough for me! 

Five Things That Happened Today:

1. On my drive home, I saw trees starting to turn from green to a pretty burnt orange.
2.  I got my butt to the gym after work which wasn't as terrible as I thought and The October Issue of Architectural Digest was waiting for me(as usual). I am quite excited that I get to relax for the rest of my night.
3.  B and I went on a walk on lunch today and we observed a lot of things which included: Jurors on lunch break, a beautiful retention wall that was made out of these pretty blocks in front of a house (but unfortunately it didn't match the house itself)
4. It flew by due to the sheer volume of people that came into our office today. I swear I looked at the clock at 8:35 and then I blinked and it was 11:50. I love these kind of days 
5.  It actually felt like fall today- the air was nice and crisp this morning and then on my afternoon walk with B, it was nice and cool, no humidity which made me happy. 

What I am Reading Currently:
  On my night stand is a smorgasboard of books that i got from the library last week:

•  Pinterest Power
• Going Social
• Huffington Post Blogging
• Finerman's Rules
• HTML
• Socialomics 

Each night I try to read a chapter here and a chapter there in what ever books look good to me that evening.

What I am Watching:
   Cops on Spike TV. I don't watch a lot of tv, yet whenever there is a Cops marathon on, I have to put it on, even for background noise. I think I've seen most of these episodes, since they re run them at ad nauseum. My favorites are the Jersey Cops, just because.
 

Notable Quote for Today:

Work hard in Silence, Let your success be your noise.-Frank Ocean 

XX, the everyday jersey girl 

Ps. The reason for the title is that my parents and I tend to hold on to things for probably way too long (ie. We have never moved, our cars are 5+ years older but in amazing condition, clothes, etc) and my dad has been toying around with getting a new truck and for a long time, I've been feeling over my car. It was cute at the time but now at 25, I'm over it. I would like something a little more grown up. My parents and I, over dinner talked about this rut  we get stuck in and we are going to work to try to figure out if we can REFRESH our lives and maybe switch things up and get a new car. Food for thought I guess.