Hi October! You were a great month! Lets dive right in.
Quick Recap:
- Hi Fall!
- Outside time
- Friend Time
- Being vulnerable
- Rock Climbing
- Tummy Troubles
This month was a really cool month BUT it started out a little rough. For the very first time in my dating life, I was stood up. YES stood up. I was crushed and I waited a good 40 minutes for him to show up. Some of my friends said, I gave him too much time others said they would have just left and so on. I couldn't believe it. To make matters even worse, on my way home from being stood up, I called a guy I was chatting with and during the conversation, it was revealed that his main source of protein is Peanuts..... I'm allergic to peanuts. Needless to say, I was striking out left and right. LOL
I figured after that mess, my month could only go up from there right?!
Boy, was I right. :)
I spent a lot of time outside, walking and exploring. I went on lunch time walks with a friend who works for the County too and an after work walk with a friend. I couldn't get enough of outside especially with the weather still being so beautiful. Parks, around work, around the neighborhood, I didn't care where I walked, just that I was outside, enjoying the beautiful weather.
I think the biggest and best part of my month was taking a chance and being vulnerable. That man who broke my heart back in May, came back into my life randomly every month and I couldn't deny there was something unfinished there. I was just too stubborn to admit it. When the man asked me to lunch after the mess in the beginning of the month, I said yes. I had literally nothing to lose at that point, things could only go up. My one condition for the lunch was for him not to stand me up. After explaining why I said that, he said he would most definitely be there.
Fast forward: Lunch was great, we made plans for the weekend to go rock climbing again and to hang out more. Fast forward to the end of the month, we were hanging out and chatting consistently and I couldn't stop smiling. This chance I took, a big risk in my book, actually paid off; I was in shock. I didn't want to get my hopes up too much, since it was still so new but something told me, this was good.
I had gone rock climbing precisely two times previous and once in 2017 and once in May with the man. I had been dreaming about this day for a while and while it wasn't as graceful as I would have liked it to be, it was still pretty awesome. I realized very quickly that, I panic when my feet aren't on the solid ground and somehow I developed a fear of heights and by heights I mean 2 feet off the ground. It was a great introduction into it again and I couldn't wait to climb again- even with my fear of heights.
In the midst of this excitement and friend time, this weird feeling started to come over me. I couldn't explain it, I was realizing I was getting more agitated with silly things in life, I wasn't eating as much as I normally do and I just couldn't shake or understand what this was. Naturally, I tried to ignore it and push it to the far far corner of my mind. I hoped it was nothing brewing...
This was an unexpectedly great month overall. Fall is in the air and while the temperatures stayed pretty warm, I couldn't wait for the cooler fall air to come.
Did anything good happen for you this month?
[[A ship at harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are for]]
