Reflection

**This is an unfinished draft from 12 years ago and even though it doesn't show me in the best light, I feel like to keep things real around here, I should share this. I remember this day vividly and looking back on it, it wasn't as big of a deal as I made it out to be. I did not have the control over my emotions as I do now. I am so happy I these old posts to look back on because the advice I give myself, is what i still need to hear now, a decade later. This was a few months before my health took a nose dive. **

So its Sunday night here, in New Jersey and the world cup USA vs. Portugal is on and social media is blowing up with patriotic wear and soccer status'.
I've had about 5 meltdowns(?) I don't know if that is the word, AH yes breakdowns at least today. I have been so emotional lately. I cried a bunch of times today because I was either frustrated or really sad. 

Sitting here, I guess I realized
1. I HATE when plans change especially since I was looking forward to them all week. ( I know it wasn't your fault technically but I get flustered when plans change and/or don't work out)
2. I cant take a whole week off. Thank goodness I only took random days off here and there for the rest of the summer. I need to work. My type A personality needs a schedule, rules, routine and uniformity.
3. I am a jealous person. Its a side of me that I am not proud of but Its the truth. I am a very jealous person. I loathe admitting that but its the truth. When someone has something/does something/is something that I want/I want to do/is I am envious of them. I was to always have the best and the newest but my paycheck doesn't always allow for that. I need to stop comparing my life to others. 
4. I have no friends that I can call up randomly and say lets go out tonight. Actually my friends are spread all over and I rarely get to see them. is this weird? Does anyone else have this problem?
5. I need to get motivated- I have no motivation whatsoever to do anything to keep myself fit. I try to eat healthy but going to the gym- no go. I know I can work out anywhere but I need to get my ASS into shape (well back into shape. Im pretty sure, Ive gained like 5lbs from last year. I know that isn't a lot but I see it in my stomach which doesn't make me happy.

Somedays, I get down on myself. I know I shouldn't do that. I have a great life- I have my health, family, TWO jobs, savings account, a car, and other possessions. There are a whole lot of people around the world who don't have these things, I need to be more thankful. I need to focus on what I do have and where I am going in my life.
6. I need

Taking stock///April

Making : a to do list to really complete this month
Cooking : cupcakes, whatelse?!
 Drinking : lots and lots of H2O
Reading: Lone Survivor
Wanting: Guidance, More Time, More Energy
Looking: for the “money tree” everyone seems to have found already
Playing: hid and seek with the world
Wasting: time not completing my todo list
Wishing: to find a part time job
Enjoying: this sunshine after so much rain.
Waiting: for the real spring to arrive
Liking: whats going on in my life right now
Wondering: where my prince charming is?
Loving: all my Easter decorations
Hoping: that this nice weather will stay
Marvelling: at the craziness of the human body and what it can do
Needing: someone to help me organize my bills and papers
Smelling: the roses!
Wearing: my favorite colors today- tiffany blue, navy and nude
Noticing: how my hair is just not cooperating with me anymore
Knowing: that I am content and unsettled at the same time
Thinking: about money, life, and lunch (its 9:01am )
Bookmarking: Organization tips and DIY tips on house repairs
Opening: a new chapter of my life (it’s a new month)
Giggling: at what I overheard in the office
Feeling: happy, content and unsettled at the same time (is that possible?!)

life gets in the way....

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Hi everyone!

I really had the best intentions to try to post more regularly on here but, you all know that the best laid plans go awry.

The past two weeks have been a world wind I think it would be easiest to use bullet points and go from there:

• I am finally feeling better from being sick THANK GOODNESS! That flu really kicked my butt, the cough which was lingering, has finally made an exit! (Please do not come back!)

• I got to see one of my oldest friends, EP not just once but TWICE in the past two weeks! I enjoy seeing her because she is always filled with new stories and something new going on in her life. We were lucky enough to have a little girls night out at THE OFFICE with our old sewing teacher, MS, which was so much fun! EP and I have known MS for over 10 years (eek! How can that be possible? I just was in high school last year haha) As always with MS we were laughing our butts off and we even got free desert! Its always good to see people from your past who knew you back then and see you know and how much you have grown. Its a refreshing to hear their advice and see what they have to say because they know you so well!

• I went on a (part-time) job hunt on Wednesday since I had the day off ( Lincoln's Birthday) and that was exhausting needless to say. No word yet if anywhere wants to hire me

•  Now we had another crazy snow storm which made Thursday the 13th  very quiet in the office. Only 6 out of the normal 15 came in. It was so peaceful and quiet. Only 5 very brave clients came in which made me very productive at the front desk, making copies and cleaning. I was hoping that Friday was going to be same quietness that I enjoyed today but...

• NOPE FRIDAY was absolutely crazy. MB, my coworker and I were the only two clerks who came in and we both ended up sitting with 12 clients each! The amount of people that kept walking through the door was insane. We did so well though- we work great as a team and we made the best out of the situation. By 4:30, after all the clients were done, MB and I had a stack of paperwork still to finish. Needless to say, I have a to do list a mile long already waiting for me on Tuesday Morning (We have off tomorrow for President's day)

• Friday was Valentine's Day (duh! You already knew this!) and I really didn't know how I was going to feel about it since my recent split with my last suitor. I made my little Valentine's treat bags for everyone in the office and I wore my favorite red outfit and put a big red bow in my hair and put a smile on my face. (I kept thinking to myself, through all the craziness, I am a strong girl who can get through another breakup!) My parents had made plans to go out that night to a local favorite and the day before they got my takeout from my favorite restaurant (Gluten free chicken parm and mashed potatoes) so I had something special to eat. They also let me surprises for me! I was so surprised to see that they got me some Alex and Ani bracelets, a gift card to Redbox AND white chocolate non-parelies from the local chocolate shop. They are the sweetest parents in the world. I was so ravenous when I got home from work, I popped my dinner in the microwave and quickly realized that my favorite show (COPS) had a marathon on. THIS IS THE BEST VALENTINES DAY EVERRR... I thought to myself! HA. I grabbed a Redd's Apple ale and hopped in the shower (yup, I drank beer aka Redd's in the shower, am I a college frat boy?!) I picked out 'special' pjs for the evening- leopard pants and a red sweater - and hopped into bed to watch Valentine's Day (You know that silly cheesy movie with all those A-list stars in it?!) BEST VALENTINES EVERRR!

• OHHHH I almost forgot, I also sent my best girl friends a personalized GALantine and they all loved it! Each one of them is amazing in their own way and I couldn't be happier to have all 4 of them in my life. AM, AB, DK, & EP you are all amazing! LOVE YOU

• Yesterday was a snowy lazy day that was filled with pjs and cops all day!

• Today I was super productive this morning so I don't feel so terrible sitting on my bed, blogging and surfing the internet for the past hour.

My week ahead looks a little crazy, but nothing I cannot conquer. Speaking of conquering things, I have been feeling more and more blessed this week (among the craziness) and I have been prayer more and more which is unusual for me. I have been loving some of my instagram friends posting Sunday scriptures and I usually read them in my bible and mark them if I like them. I know He has plans for me and all of this heartache and craziness is part of it but I am impatient sometimes and I want to know where I will be ending up. I have big dreams but sometimes I am afraid to speak about them because they seem so grandiose. I am so curious to find out what's out there waiting for me. One of the Alex and Ani bracelets, my parents got me for Valentine's Day says "what's for you, wont pass you" and I thought that was so powerful and I just need to trust that this is all part of the plan. I am as always blessed and grateful for this life and I am so excited to see what the future holds?

Any exciting plans coming up this week?!

-the everyday jersey girl

New Month..... New Outlook.

Hello February!!!

Well, the everyday jersey girl is taking February on with a positive attitude and she is going to try to make things happen. Just because things end, that does not mean that the world is ending. It means it wasn't right for you and THATS OKAY! Just take a step back, regroup, and figure out a new game plan. Even the best laid plans go awry- even with the Superbowl (Nice try Broncs) ( I'm not even a football fan)

The quote above speaks volumes, I don' t settle. I know exactly what I want and I wont stop until I find the exact thing (what ever it might be) I am looking for. My path may twist and turn and I may have set backs, but I always have my eye on the prize.

Looking ahead to February, I have 2 days off and lots of exciting things happening. I want to continue with my new years resolutions of being a better me and I WILL try to get to the gym more.

Its a new month, What are you excited for? Any new goals for the Month?

xx the everyday jersey girl

Today I am.....

Making : A packing List for this weekend’s get away to AC   
Cooking Baking : Cupcakes
Drinking : Water
Reading:  my to do list
Wanting: a cooler office (as in temperature, not people)
Looking: For Valentine’s Gifts for boyfriend
Playing: Rummy 500
Wasting: time
Wishing: For a quick week
Enjoying: A rainy Tuesday
Waiting: For the weekend
Liking:  My mini lunch date with the boyfriend today
Wondering: What in the world, I was thinking this morning not putting on a watch
Loving: Today’s warmer weather (45 degrees) and my new raincoat.
Hoping: For patience and guidance
Marveling: At how amazing some women are
Needing: a haircut
Smelling: Pink Chiffon, I’m currently wearing
Wearing: grey khakis, purple button up and silver flats
Noticing: how its almost halfway through January already.
Knowing: the ‘race rule’ in real estate (I impressed the boys with that one)
Thinking: how I am going to actually relax this week
Bookmarking: Florida resorts for a weekend getaway with the boyfriend.
Opening: a new file today
Giggling: at my desk friends- George and Phil
Feeling: overwhelmed at the moment.

Tomorow is my birthday, so technically, these are some of my last thoughts as a 25 year old.

Crumbs (Gluten Free) Bake Shop

Crumbs Gluten Free

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That jibberish is my excitement that CRUMBS, delciously yummy bakery, opened an exclusive GLUTEN FREE bakery in NYC. This makes me want to jump on the next bus to NYC and go and find this place and eat as much as I can and then head back home with goodies in hand. The best part of this bakery- its Gluten AND Peanut free.

Anyone want to come along?!

The EX files

My Wednesday morning has been quite one for the record books:

I got a virus on my computer about a week ago but my computer overall was running fine until I realized I couldn't get my work email. I reluctantly called IT to see if they can help me. The IT guy I spoke to on the phone said he couldnt find my computer on the network- UH OH! He couldnt come down today but he would be down in the morning. I cringed not because i did somthing wrong (well I did ) but one of my ex boyfriends just so happens to be the IT guy for my office.

I know what you are thinking right now- YOU just broke the cardinal rule, DO NOT date anyone in the office. Right, it sounded liked the best idea at the time but when we broke up, I knew I was forever screwed.

Well, to my shock, HE appeared at my cubicle this morning and I told him I broke it. I awkwardly got up and scooted around he took my seat and got to work. I said to myself I wasn't going to have this be awkward and I started small talk.

"I really broke it didn't I?!"
"Yup"
"Oh Sugar"

I asked him how his house was going ( he bought one just before we broke up) and how his parents were blah blah blah........

After a while, I realized some things, never changed. I say this because he acted in the same manner as he was right before we broke up. Now I have never run into an ex or even a guy I went on a couple of dates with and I didnt know what to expect.

This affirmed that we broke up for the right reasons.

Sometimes God, works in funny ways.

XX the everyday jersey girl.

Exciting Happenings....

I cannot really go into detail about it right this moment, BUT Exciting things are brewing with my career.Things that I have been praying a lot lately and trying to be patient with His plans and I know its hard. It is finally paying off. The right people are seeing my good work and my hard work hasn't gone unnoticed. I am beyond THANKFUL and feeling very blessed right now because of it. Grandma is surely watching over me and making sure all my prayers are being answered!

 

XX the everyday jersey girl

 

Is anything exciting happening right now in your career?

Are your prayers being answered?

 

What Not To Wear....

I usually get my clothes together on the weekend, iron all the pieces and hang them on my rolling rack but since Mother Nature has been so unpredictable, I wake up in the morning not knowing what to wear. As I was brushing my teeth this morning, I came up with this outfit. I wore the top portion (jacket and shirt) and the shoes to dinner with my parents with a pair a jeans a couple of weeks ago. It was very cute and casual. I imagined in my head this outfit transferring seemlessly to work wear but after looking through the photos from this morning, I feel as if I look messy today. It's as if I got dressed in the dark and I do not like it at all. I guess I can blame it on Mother Nature and try harder tomorrow.
Pants: Ann Taylor Loft
Shirt: Lilly Pulitzer
Jacket: Kohl's
Necklace: ILY Couture
Shoes: Nine West

Happy Monday!

Oh Monday, you always come too fast after a great weekend. I am happy to start this week and I woke up at 5:30 ready to start my day! (I know, crazy! but I take a long time to get ready!)

5 Things for Monday
1. There is a TORNADO WATCH for OCEAN COUNTY today! From just watching the wind whip the trees around outside- I am afraid of going outside today!
2. I think it's finally time for me to give up the search on the 3.1 Philip Lim for Target Tote with Gusset in Black. I have been to FOUR different Target's in the area and to no avil there are none to be found. It's such a pretty bag.  As much as I would love to add this to my collection, It just isn't going to happen.

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 It's just a pretty bag that I am in Love with. It is as elusive as trying to find a boyfriend in my case.
3. Being a Maid of Honor, for Biff's wedding is kinda really important, I am starting to realize real quick, as I mentioned in other posts (LIST POSTS) It's funny, I feel as if I would be the last person to pick for this job. I'm organized but this is someone's wedding! I will keep you updated on it.
4.I need to fix my printer that has been out of serivce since maybe the beinning of the Summer! There are so many cute outfits I find from my fellow bloggers that I would love to print out and put into my look book but I just can't.
5. Lux hit 300 miles over the weekend! Yes I did just get Lux 11 days ago and I have been driving non stop it feels but its so darn comfortable to drive how could i resist. ( I got Lux with 28 miles on it.)

What I am Reading:
 Currently I have been reading Quiet Influence by Jennifer Kahnweiler PhD. I thought it would be intersting learning how introverts can be effective in mangement positions. I typically relate to more introverts than extroverts just because i need time to recharge my batteries after being with a large group of people for a long amount of time and for other reasons too. I've only just started reading it and it seems it will keep my attention for a bit.

Noteable quote:
     " I believe with all my heart, that if you treat little things like they are big things, the mundane thlike they are all the miraculous, the tiny detail like they are the big picture, your life will be infinitely better. Start slow and try it. Notice more, See more, Appriciate more. You will find out. " Tyler Knott on Instagram today..

Does anyone have exciting plans for this week?

XX, the everyday jersey girl